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Just to reiterate: I am not always looking for smut, but I am usually open to it. I let the preferences of whoever I am playing with dictate where a thread goes. So if you want to play something friendly and fluffy (or vicious and antagonistic), I am 100% in.

Shipping is all about chemistry for me. I don't discriminate by gender, media, or canon, if the spark is there. This character, also, is pretty much game to try anything that doesn't get him killed. The player is not quite so cavalier, so here are some prefs in case the need arises.

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Questions and comments are always welcome!

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TBH: The mun is no Biblical scholar, but did attend several years of Sunday School in a Methodist church before running off to join the Unitarians.

So, I think most people familiar with angelic mythology and apocryphal Judeo-Christian...whatever, know that the name 'Michael' means 'Who is like God?'. Most of the other Biblical and apocryphal angelic names have similar structure, with the 'El' part signifying God, or the power of God or a god.

Not all the angels in SPN have the same type of name, but many do. Balthazar does not. His name is also Biblical, but comes from the name of the last king of Babylon (also Belshatzzar or Bel-sarra-usur), who sees a mysterious disembodied hand writing on a wall and has the writing interpreted by the prophet Daniel (spoiler: it does not turn out to be good news).

Balthazar's name, however, is a different type of theophory, using 'Ba'al' instead of the root 'El'. In much of the Old Testament, Ba'al is used to refer to a different and competing god, rather than the God we think of today as the Judeo-Christian Creator, however, in its most basic form the name Ba'al means lord or master, and most of the name origin sites I have found translate the entire moniker as 'Lord/Master protect the King'.

It's not a bad name, really, but in the light of Biblical context, it's not an especially auspicious one, either.

Bad Jokes

Jun. 29th, 2012 12:28 pm
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How many angels does it take to change a light bulb? one knows. We're all too busy dancing on the head of a pin.
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In the interest of full disclosure, I'm attracted to many and varied ships in the SPN fandom, but in the case of this particular character I can't help but read a heavy attachment to Castiel into his actions in canon. I can see this as one-sided or solely platonic, but I can't not see it. So I do have a bit of Calthazar bias. This does not mean I'm only looking for interaction with Castiel with this character, or only romance/smut, or even only SPN-fandom interaction. I love crossovers and AUs, so just hit me up with any idea you have and I'll give it a try. Much like the character, I'm open minded that way.

That having been said, these are the in-character biases you're likely to encounter with various characters, unless we have some prior arrangement between muns:

My assumption is that Castiel is actually the slightly older one of the two of them. He was higher-ranking, as well, until his demotion. He was not Balthazar's direct-line superior, but they were in the same garrison, and Balthazar both worked with him and possibly took orders from him once or twice. They were able to interact some socially and get the measure of each other, and Balthazar was intrigued and a little amused by Castiel's blend of sincerity and social awkwardness.
After the aborted Apocalypse and their reintroduction to one another on earth, Balthazar broke his cover, stood up to an archangel (the only free and living archangel left, in fact), handed over all his favorite toys (an insanely powerful heavenly arsenal), and took orders from Castiel, even taking some blame and diverting attention for some of the resultant shenanigans. Was he trying to preserve Free Will? Partly. Partly he just wanted to save the life of the friend he had fought with for so many thousands of years.

They were clearly in the same garrison, and it's probable she was his direct-line superior, if several levels above him, which would have meant they worked closely with one another. Maybe they spoke about their doubts and frustrations, maybe not. He would have tried to speak up for her when she was brought back to Heaven for trial, if he had the opportunity, and he grieved her death deeply.

For all his swagger, Balthazar is terrified of Raphael. Archangels can be merciless. In a way, he pities him, too, though. The last living and free archangel. It must be painful.

I imagine Balthazar having a severe case of hero-worship, or possibly the angelic equivalent of a puppy-love crush, on Gabriel, who may or may not have been aware the other angel even existed except as a name in the mass of big and little brothers bickering in Heaven. There are some similarities between their methods of escaping their obligations. Perhaps Balthazar took a page from Gabriel's book.

Other angels in general
In canon, Balthazar is never seen drawing his sword against another angel. He destroys the vessels of Raphael and one of his followers, but even when he encounters Virgil, he'd rather flee than fight. Partly this may be awareness of his own limitations, but I tend to think he has warm feelings for his siblings and just doesn't want to fight them.

He would like to never encounter Lucifer. In a sense he understands his frustration with God and with humanity, but he considers him an enemy.

Demons in general
Under controlled circumstances, he might willingly bang one or two, but he's also still content to brutally kill them if he has to.

Abrasive, irritating, pain in the ass and not especially bright. Castiel obviously has a strong attachment to him, though, and that both confuses and pisses off Balthazar. Why would an angel choose a human over a brother? What do these monkeys have that he doesn't?
Except of course Dean and Balthazar have some distinct similarities: both are happy to pursue pleasure, and both keep a defensive facade. They may be more alike than either wants to admit.

More or less the same as Dean, except there's the unresolved matter of Sam being in Balthazar's debt. Just because his advice on scarring his vessel didn't work out for him doesn't mean he gets a pass on that.
There are parallels between Sam and Balthazar, as well. Both run when confronted with a family situation they can't handle psychologically.

Humans in general
For all that he calls humans 'hairless apes' and worse, the dichotomy of what they are as a group versus what an individual is capable of fascinates him. Ask him what he thinks of humans as a whole, and you'll get a disparaging answer. Ask him what he thinks of one individual, and what you get back will be vastly different. They are little universes of light and dark and ick and glory unto themselves.
Also, they make awesome drugs and are good for orgies.


Jun. 3rd, 2012 01:07 pm
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Answer the following questions with "yes" or "no", as well as additional information if desired.

Backtagging: Yes. I tend to keep on for weeks, if necessary. If I drop a thread, chances are I'm busy OOC or have missed a notification, rather than the thrill being gone or something.
Threadhopping: Please ask first, unless in a meme designed for it.
Fourthwalling: Usually I dislike it, but this particular character can probably handle fourthwalling and canon puncturing without losing coherency, so I'm going to offer a tentative 'yes'.
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Hugging this character: By all means!
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Warnings: Discussion of drug and alcohol use is likely with this character, and he's very sexually experimental. If any of that is a trigger, please let me know and I can tone it down. Due to the nature of his canon, some of his character traits, background, and point of view might be viewed as sacreligious. If this is a problem for you as a mun, please just avoid him.

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I don’t remember which of us was the first one that dared say God was not coming back.

I know it wasn’t any of the Archangels still in Heaven after Lucifer’s fall. No, it was probably someone in the rank-and-file, some poor little Cupid with nothing to lose. I imagine it was whispered at first: What if He never returns?

Ideas travel quickly in Heaven. Angels’ minds can touch very closely. Someone careless can end up broadcasting every thought—not that there aren’t secrets among the Host. Far from it. But thoughts of our Father do tend to be…loud. And unsubtle. I’m sure whoever it was got hushed quickly, one way or another. But the idea lingered.

What if He never comes back?

From there, it’s only half a step to ‘How can we make Him come back?’ I think most of us started by trying to be on our best behavior. To make Him proud, so proud He would return with open arms, and those of us who had never seen His face or heard His voice, we would be rewarded for our faith.

That didn’t pan out well. After a while, 'best behavior' devolved to 'getting God’s attention at all costs'. Bickering, backbiting, disobeying orders, threatening to tamper with the Earth…if you stopped to listen, you could hear the desperation building, and the anger.

I think Uriel was the first one to say God was dead.

No one tried to hush him.

Me, I try to stay away from the big philosophical questions, but I figured that if God was still out there, he would do what he wanted to do. Nothing the Host did would change his mind. Nothing I did would matter in the long term. I was only one angel. Still, I followed most of my orders, stood up for the brothers I knew best, and waited to see how things would go. Waited for a sign.

Cas was the sign. Maybe if it had been an angel I knew less closely, someone I had never fought side by side with, I wouldn’t have felt the same way. But Castiel, the consummate company man, the straight-laced, ever-sincere Captain? If he could break the rules, maybe so could I. Maybe all of us could. Hell, maybe there were no rules.

I didn’t fall. I jumped headfirst.

In retrospect, I wonder if that’s precisely what our Father intended.


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