Lucifer leans against Balthazar. Given the topic at hand the closeness is comforting, potentially needed to keep his emotions in control. Even so, there's a clinging aspect to Lucifer's behavior now that they are talking about his family. He wondered if the God of his creation had any influence here? Sure, there was a neutrality pact here but God wasn't known for caring particularly about anything other than what he wanted to do. Lucifer had thought of that a lot, how God, at times, acted worse than Lucifer himself did.
"Eve was still immortal when she carried Cain. I do not think it would happen with a mortal human." He couldn't help but feel a longing for them, especially Eve. "My other children are Seraphim I created, as God creates angels. They are all forbidden, abominations in the eyes of God." He paused trying to keep some semblance of internal order. "Eve suffered greatly at the hands of Adam to protect Cain from death and God saw that I was chained to the Lake of Fire for my transgression. My first child was the angel God demanded I kill. The one He forced me to watch the other angels tear apart when I refused."
Lucifer did not live with a merciful God, or rather it was a God that was merciful to everyone except Lucifer and a few others that seemed beyond His notice or care. He was starting to sink into a depression. Between the memories of God's behavior and the fear over what was happening with Balthazar, he started to feel like he was spiraling into darkness. It wasn't sobs when the tears started. He cried silently, with little physical indication that it was happening other than the bloody tears dripping down on the other angel as he held him.
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Date: 2019-08-25 07:37 pm (UTC)"Eve was still immortal when she carried Cain. I do not think it would happen with a mortal human." He couldn't help but feel a longing for them, especially Eve. "My other children are Seraphim I created, as God creates angels. They are all forbidden, abominations in the eyes of God." He paused trying to keep some semblance of internal order. "Eve suffered greatly at the hands of Adam to protect Cain from death and God saw that I was chained to the Lake of Fire for my transgression. My first child was the angel God demanded I kill. The one He forced me to watch the other angels tear apart when I refused."
Lucifer did not live with a merciful God, or rather it was a God that was merciful to everyone except Lucifer and a few others that seemed beyond His notice or care. He was starting to sink into a depression. Between the memories of God's behavior and the fear over what was happening with Balthazar, he started to feel like he was spiraling into darkness. It wasn't sobs when the tears started. He cried silently, with little physical indication that it was happening other than the bloody tears dripping down on the other angel as he held him.